I'm also making some updates to the 100 in 1000 list so check it out!
*Uh oh Greg, this may be a long one so I know you're my boy and all but go ahead and flip back to your spanish lessons on tape*
So I'm 27 now... wow late 20's. I don't feel old at all. Sometimes I feel like I'm 19 still but when I think back even 4 or 5 years ago and remember what I thought 27 was gonna be like, boy was I wrong!
I went home for my birthday too. It was great to go home and be able to go out and see everyone. When I was home for xmas, I got sick and then did the family thing so I never had the chance to hang out with my peoples (Congrats Kevin and Amy! Congrats Cassandra and Scott!). It's interesting to see the different paths that we are all taking now. Knowing what I know about some of these people it's amazing they're able to dress themselves in the mornings, let alone be productive members of society.
As for stuff around here, I'm doing lots of yard work trying to get the house the way I want it to be, and I'm slowly getting there, but for some reason the list doesn't get any smaller. And Beau is basically the best dog ever, we are able to run a mile around the neighborhood now and he is completely off the leash and stays by my side (well except for today when he came from nowhere to tackle a cat in a puddle in the street... wow)
Now on to the topic that motivated me to start writing again. A couple nights ago I watched Michael Clayton a very interesting movie that came out awhile back but being that I'm not too big of a movie buff I just now got around to watching it. To me, it was a movie about deceit, greed, delusions and illusions brought on by humans. So I got to thinking, we are a pretty pathetic species aren't we? I mean we do things in our everyday lives just to ruin someone else's day or to make sure that we have everything and they (whoever that may be at the time) has nothing. As an economist -like to throw that in there every now and again- I was taught that "more is always better". Mathematically and graphically... yes more is definitely better. But is it better in everyday life? Can't we just be happy with what we have? What is it about how we are wired that makes us try to have more of everything. For example, you can argue that athletes get paid too much, well stop going to the games then. Because you want to watch more football, they get more money... and they should. If you're willing to pay the price to watch them play then they deserve a piece of that... I digress. I just seems like it is so hard for people to be genuinely happy in life. And that's a shame.
For the first time in my life I have been able to take my foot off the accelerator of life and, damn it feels good. I just go to work and go to the gym (I'm doing Ab Ripper X, youtube it and do part 1 and 2... it's dirty!) then come home walk my dog and eat dinner and then relax. And I'm the happiest I've been in a long time, if not ever. I don't have a project or test to get done, I don't have another semester of school to worry about, I don't have the pressure of buying a home to worry about, I'm not searching for a job (even in this economy). So I can just relax. Now this doesn't mean that I don't push myself to be the best recruiter at work or that I don't push myself to have huge bulging muscles in the gym, one can hope right? But in the overall scheme of life, I'm kind've content. I hope that this doesn't lead to me limiting my progress or my future by this level of contentment, but for now I think it is quite refreshing. I have some big events coming up in the near future and maybe that will spark some fire under me but until then, I'm chillin!
I leave you with these lyrics that popped into my head without hearing the song in years... must be a sign. I'm just adding the chorus because that's the only part I knew anyway haha.
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
